day 30: what has changed this month and what you hope happens next month

okay the title is really annoying me, i couldn't get it all on one line! this month started off pretty depressing, as me and my boyfriend broke up and i was finding it really hard to deal with, but then my friends were there for me and everything got a lot better, i guess i realised i wasn't as lonely as i thought!  i've found my old friends and made a few new ones and this one special guy (HAI IF YOURE READING) has cheered me up loads and is amazing and lovely, so i'm looking forward to the future, just got exams to go and i'm done!

this 30 day challenge has been rather annoying, i can imagine it must tick off readers sometimes but meh, it's all over now and i'm pretty proud of myself for actually finishing it, i've tried them before, on tumblr and stuff but never actually finished one, and i did them all on the right days too, didn't miss any! yay :D
love amy x

day 29: a picture of yourself

me and my friend alex at a gathering last weekend(:
love amy x

day 28: the month you've been happiest this year

i think this month has actually been the best month this year.  the first few months were pretty crappy cause of my break up, but march has been pretty good :D if you're one of the whole 9 readers of my blog then you'll know i've met this guy and he's been really lovely to me so cheered me up a lot, really helped with all the stuff that's happened.  but yeah, hopefully there will be more good months to come! (:
love amy x

day 27: talk about your siblings

well, this could be a potentially long post aha.  i have three brothers, two being blood and one being half, but i count him as full.  unfortunately, i am the eldest as well as being the only girl which means i'm stuck with being 'responsible' grr.  my oldest younger brother is called george, he's in year 9 and currently boarding at millfield school in somerset.  he got a scholarship cause he's really good at sports but it feels a bit weird not having him around.  my middle brother is called edward, he's in year 7 or 8, i'm not actually sure, but he has trouble without george, cause they used to always spend time together and he doesn't really have anyone now.  lastly we've got little fred, he's a product of my mums remarriage 2 years ago and he's currently nearly 8 months old.  i love him, but he's become a big limiting factor to my life which kinda sucks.  oh welllll
love amy x

day 26: your religious beliefs

i don't really have any religious beliefs.  technically i'm church of england because i was christened when i was little and i used to believe then but now i'm older i don't believe at all.  in my opinion, it's all impossible but i guess i'll count myself as agnostic.  if anyone shows me evidence of god or jesus i'll believe but otherwise, neh.
love amy x

day 25: 10 ways to win your heart

1. be funny, that's the most important thing
2. good music taste (ie. the music i'm into)
3. honesty.
4. light on the cheesy stuff, save it for when it's best needed so it's special
5. get on well with my family
6. actually make an effort to see me etc
7. have the same interests as me
8. not acting different when with their friends
9. be able to get along with my friends
10. the occasional 'romantic' thing i guess?
love amy x

day 24: things you want to say to 5 people

1. i knew the things you were saying, yet you lied to me the whole way through.
2. it's hard knowing that you've changed so much, it doesn't feel like we'll ever be the same again.
3. you had the nerve to smile at me after what happened. wow.
4. lol i can't believe that happened, oops.
5. fraaaiday!
love amy x

day 23: something you always think 'what if?' about

i could honestly go on forever with this one.  i always think about where i would be now if things didn't happen.  i'm a believer in 'the butterfly effect' or whatever it's called where the tiniest things can make the biggest impacts.  i ponder on past relationships, friendships, arguments, everything.  for example, i always think about what would have happened if i hadn't moved schools, i would be in such a different place right now, with a completely different social circle and everything, it's really strange.  but yeah, there isn't really anything specific, but i'm always thinking about this sort of thing!
love amy x

day 22: 10 things about you people don't expect

1/ i looove pokémon!  i'm a geek like that.  i know most of the names and the noises that the original pokémon made!
2/ my whole family is completely mad
3/ i'm quite flexible?
4/ i'm insanely superstitious
5/ i LIVE on junk food, i'm such an unhealthy eater
6/ i'm into some reeeaally heavy music
7/ i'm very scared of clowns
8/ i can play expert guitar on guitar hero
9/ i like all the FFUUU comics etc you find on tumblr/4chan/reddit
10/ altogether, just a major computer nerd hahaha
love amy x

day 21: something you can't seem to get over

my ex? i don't know, when we first broke up i was a wreck, but now i'm feeling a lot better about the situation, i realised it was for the best, and that i can in fact deal well without him (:
love amy x

day 20: the last argument you had

i'm not really sure, i don't have arguments that often, i'm a pretty chilled person and don't get into fights a lot, so i have no idea.  it was probably this friday just gone when i was having a reeaally bad day and snapped on the phone to my dad 'cause he didn't collect my bags with my weekend clothes from mums house (so annoying having divorced parents sometimes!) but it wasn't really an argument, just my being grumpy i guess haha.
love amy x

day 19: something that always makes you feel better

hmm. well normally when i'm feeling sad i like hugs, especially from my mum.  i also loooove chocolate!  it's also good to have distractions, for example: when i broke with my long term relationship i was really lost because i had drifted from my friends a lot, so i tried talking to new people and going out more, it worked as it helped me take my mind off things and gave me something else to think about than him.  i also quite like going on walks with my huge skullcandy headphones.  yeah i look a bit silly, as they are so big, but i stopped caring after a while, the sound quality is incredible.  
also, it's sunny outside here! going to be a good day (:
love amy x

day 18: disrespecting parents

i don't have long to post because i'm supposed to be round my friends house in like 45 mins but i need to go through with this 30 day post thing!  basically, people being disrespectful to their parents is one of my pet hates.  even in the worst of times i still have a high amount of respect for my parents.  one thing i hate is when kids shout at their parents.  yeah it happens but when kids are constantly disobedient and swear and stuff i can't stand it.  i could be having the worst day of my entire life and i would never ever swear at my parents.  what's the point in being disrespectful to the people that have brought you up, put a roof over your head, fed you, clothed you, educated you, everything.  i absolutely hate it!
anyway, must dash, byyeee!
love amy x

day 17: things that make you scared

wow, i'm scared of so many things!  first of all, spiders.  i HATE spiders with a passion, every time i see one i completely freak out.  i've got better, cause now i'm able to get close enough to them to catch them but i still get all jitterish.  i also am terrified of clowns, ugh they're just so sinister and disturbing!  i could go through all my fears like that but one of the things i'm most scared about is forgetting.  i am a hoarder, i keep everything with memories attached to it, because i'm scared of forgetting the past.  that's the reason i get all sad when people delete photos on facebook, because the pictures will eventually slip my mind completely and i will have forgotten about it.  i also have this thing about the number 13.  i'm mega superstitious so whenever i see the number 13 i automatically assume the worst, i scare myself sometimes! i overthink everything and get all worked up when actually, there's nothing to worry about.  anyway, i have like 12% battery on this laptop which is my dads so i need to finish up before it runs out, as he needs to use it and his chargers at work, oopsy!
love amy x

day 16: 3 things you're proud of about your personality

oh god, i don't know, i'm not good at these things!

1. i like my music taste? i know, obviously that i'm going to like the things i listen to (duh) but i like a whole range of different stuff, from metal to mainstream, to dubstep, to chiptune, good for relating to different people (:

2. my creativity.  i like how i can just pick up a pen and doodle anything, and i'm pretty good at making things, i think.  i love fun diy's and almost always have a project on the go (:

3. apparently i'm easy to talk to.  i guess this is kinda true, as i'm normally the one to start conversations etc but i don't really know! i'm not good at self flattery aha.

apologies for the somewhat weak post, i'm not really that self-confident..
love amy x

day 15: the best thing to happen to you this week

well i've not really had much of a week really, considering it's only tuesday, but it's been alright so far i guess.  i'm talking to this really lovely guy at the moment who's cheered me up huge amounts since my big break up so that's pretty good.  i've also had most of my mock results back, most of which being A, apart from a B&C in classics and a C in maths (my weakest subject).  i'm happy with C's as at least i've passed etc. but i'm aiming to improve them to at least a B for my actual GCSE's.  so yeah, not that far into the week, but so far it's looking up (:
love amy x

day 14: something disgusting you do

i'm not sure, i used to bite my nails really badly, like completely to the quick and they looked really skanky, but then mum made me get the proper acrylic ones so they're really nice now, and also because they don't bend like natural nails, nail varnish never chips!  it's so good, but it is annoying having to go and get them done at the salons, it's so mind-numbing and dull. soo yeah, thats pretty much it really (:
love amy x

day 12: things you want to say to an ex

omg relationships again?? i actually have no idea, i have so many things i want to say to my ex, but i think the main thing would be: i wish you had tried harder.
i could go on and on about him, but i'm not going to, i've put him to the back of my mind and he is going to stay there, as i've actually been having a good few days so far and don't want to bring myself down again (:
love amy x

day 11: your current relationship status

ugggh why do all these questions have to have relationships involved!  as you may have read further down, me and my ex broke up on the 2nd of this month and i was absolutely devastated, not gonna lie.  however, i think i did most of the worrying and crying about the relationship while i was still actually with him, because i knew we were over.  now, i'm still upset about it, and i know i still love him but i've been spending more time with my friends lately, got back in touch with a few people and even made some new friends.  i've also started talking to this guy who's been so lovely to me this past week or so.  obviously it's too soon to start anything new, and i don't know him that well, but i dunno, i think he may be the kind of guy i see myself starting to like, he is into so much of the same stuff as me, we have insane amounts of things in common, and that's hard to do with me, considering i'm not really too 'mainstream' with my tastes in anything!  but yeah, i'm single, but at the moment, pretty happy (:
love amy x

day 10: your views on drugs and alcohol

to be completely honest, i don't think there's anything wrong with drugs and alcohol.  i mean, yeah they can seriously dangerous in so many ways but also mean that you can have a really fun time and just forget about all your worries for a bit.  obviously, drugs are bad (mmkay) but i believe if you take them really rarely and in small amounts just for a good time it's okay (note, i am not a druggie, just sayin) but anything class A etc is soo far, that stuff is just scary and would screw you up big time. but yeah, alcohol is completely fine in my opinion and drugs are alright within reason.  but i guess there's a first time for everything?
this has been a (slightly dodgy?) post.
love amy x